Monday, June 21, 2010


With anything you do in life there is a decision to be made. No matter what it is, there is a choice that comes with it and of course, depending on your route, there are always different outcomes. Some people are notorious for bad decisions and others seem to always make the right choice but the rest of us are somewhere in between with a mixture of good and bad. As Baz Luhrman says, your choices are half chance and so are everybody elses. I've made a lot of immature choices in my life and some have had less than desirable outcomes, others have been pretty good and some are just bad, but despite the negative outcomes i've endured, I usually hold strong to the idea that "everything happens for a reason".
Sometimes the choice you make is not important, its something simple like what to eat, what shirt to wear etc... but sometimes the choices we make are much harder, much more important.
Everyone will always have an opinion about what you should do and in some cases it's hard to tell what you really want, or which way you should go.
Sometimes the choices are about relationships, sometimes you know in your heart what the right thing to do is but the consequences are too difficult to stand or you worry too much about the other person. An instructor once told me that you should let other people be responsible for their own feelings. I find this very difficult and therefore it usually interferes with my decision making despite what would benefit me the most.
Sometimes, especially in relationships, you start to feel a certain way but doubt why you're feeling that way and therefore, struggle with the choice that needs to be made. Being an emotional person makes you doubt yourself a lot. If you know you tend to over react and get upset about things easily, how do you know when you're feelings are valid? You can ask someone else, but how do they know? and depending on who you ask, you will usually get very different opinions.
They say "trust your gut" but my gut changes its mind constantly. It's so damn moody.
How am I supposed to know if its an actual emotion or if i'm just having an off day/week?
I'm not looking for an answer, i'm just frustrated with my results.

JC

ps. again the picture is just off google

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